Tortillas and Cornbread: Our blessings

So with all the things that have happened lately, I just want to take my babies up, hold them tight and never let them go. I do anything I can to protect them, but the truth is, I really do not have control over what happens to them. I can give them a safe environment at home or what I think is a safe environment, but accidents still happen. Just like last week when our friends who have two children thought the kids were safe in their bedroom only to find that in a random act of events, one of the babies hung themselves. I would be devastated as is our friends.

We do what we can to keep them safe at all times. We hold their hands when walking across the street, cover the plugs, put cabinet locks on the cabinets, and lock doors. But David has learned how to work the child locks on the cabinets, open the doors, and reach my cup of water or Ranita’s coffee that we can’t figure out how he got to it. He is great at getting the refrigerator open or the panty open. Or David comes walking out of his room sometimes asking us to open something that we for the life of us can’t figure out how he got it in the first place. I think he is afraid that we are going to run out of food one day, because he will randomly bring us a bag of goldfish or cookies or something that he wants to eat, but can’t get in to. He seems to have a stash hidden somewhere. A part of me finds it funny, but I really can’t figure out how he gets them.

So while we think that we are doing the best we can to keep them safe, there is a plethora of things that really can happen. So this brings me back to I wish I could hold them tight and never let them go. I know that isn’t possible, I accept that. My kids are already wanting to show some independence. How quickly it comes. I want them to grow up to be strong, healthy, productive adults, but does it really have to start so early? I watch as I see their innocence and pure curiosity life. I watch them as they know that something wrong, but watch us as they do to see how long it takes us to stop them. They are testing us and I truly believe it is important for us to set boundaries for them. They have to learn that every action in life has a consequence. David has learned very quickly that when he pulls a glass bottle out of the refrigerator and throws it on a tile floor that it breaks.

They both have learned if music comes on, you dance. If the door opens, you run so you can beat your mom and you will have some time outdoors. David has learned that it is not ok to run across the room and tackle your sister, even if it was a little funny. David was upset to find out that he got in trouble for doing that, but he seemed most concerned that his sister was crying. So he shared with her his most prized possession..his monkey pacifier. Then he went and found his hidden goldfish and was feeding them to her. He can be so protective of her. He can’t stand it if she is in her room asleep. He will sneak away from us and go and wake her up. He wants her with him. Last night, he wouldn’t stay in bed, and all he wanted to do was take a blanket to Victoria. It is so sweet to watch them play together. Now Victoria has learned that we say “No David” a lot and she is fast to say that. They both love to give us kisses or just hold their head up against ours and just show us that they love us. I LOVE those moments. Even when the kisses are snotty, there is nothing better than a kiss from my babies.

I want to teach them everything that I can. They truly just love to be with us. If I am cooking, David wants to be right with me. If I go to the bathroom, they both sit outside the door and knock on the door, cry or call mama. I love that they want to be with me. I love to see when they want to cuddle with their daddy or sit and watch the train around the bottom of the tree. They do such random things that we can’t do anything but smile and fall in love with them a little more. I always think that I couldn’t love them anymore than I do right now and then they do something else that makes my heart grow that much more. I can truly say that God blessed us more than we could have ever imagined with these two!